[SlainThrax-]

well now that i have some comments that have been made it made me feel like leting people into me life.

NOTE TO SMODS AND MODS: do not move this or close it i want it here and i will close it if i feel i need to.

well since about 4th grade i had been getting crap at school becauswe of something i did which i dont know what it was.. mainly at that point was constant people makeing fun of me calling me a loser and stuff like that this is why i turned to the computer in the first place.. to look for friends online outside of my school. then the harrasment progressed into people calling me gay and things like that. it pretty much stayed that way until 6th grade when i liked someone told her and got rejected this sent me into depression and things started getting worse.. i acted differently and lost many of the few friends that i had. the harrasment started getting worse and worse. then in 7th grade i liked someone else and i told her and she rejected me BUT she also told people i was stalking her which turned into more harrasment and harder harrasment. this pushed me close to the edge. this continued getting harsher and harsher as the months went by. then as 8th grade started the harrasment got harder and harder to deal with.

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then about a month into 8th grade i talked to the girl that i liked in 7th grade.. and told her i still liked her and she started spreading more rumors that i was stalking her and numerously going to the police about it when i wasnt doing a damn thing. then she started a rumor that i was going to bring a GUN into school. this then pushed me over the edge and i started dreassing differently.



then one day.. i came into school like i always did and durring first period the cops stormed my classrom and arrested me. they told me that they got a tip that someone saw me with a gun walking into school(this was completely false i dont even have a gun). this just pushed me to the point where i started cutting myself and eventualy wound up trying to kill myself(i hung myself by the neckfrom a tree one night.) then i got suspended after a number of things so basicly it smowballed from there... but then i literaly beat someone to the ground cause he called me a stalker (broke his nose gave him a bad black eye) then people started to leave me alone and things got better but then they got worse again as things heated up again and now after im in highschool for over a month in a different highschool than them they still spread rumors about me.

all the while i was getting **** from bigbro killer a muler on seed among other people..

soo... whats why i am who i am today.

[Res]

NO cutting for you man!

Well.. I can understand all of it.. i know some people that act like the guys that you talk about..

People will be people.. but you seem to be doing better than alot of other people i know that go through that kind of stuff... Keep smilin'.

KM

[Killerconvic]

all the while i was getting **** from bigbro killer a muler on seed among other people..

And yet, you think that we all did this out of the blue. Maybe if you didn't try to annoy people, people would treat you differently.

[SlainThrax-]

... ok lol i only try to anyoy people who are like you... arrogent and highstrung thats why i try to anyoy you

[Ruckus Fox]

SS3, listen man, I know atleast half that you've been through (excluding the storming of the classroom and arrested...well...I've come close to being arrested But I've got light feet and a quick mind.) That first rejection for guys really hurts I think. When I was rejected for the first time, I fell into a depression and thought of jumping off our train bridge (which many have done...) then I realised I was too much of a pussy to actually do anything to myself. The most harm I've ever done to myself was plummeted myself down the stairs when I was little (and then I thought it was FUN!) In spite of all this, I'm actually glad you decided to express your feelings and emotions, I'll say it really really helps. As for girls that spred rumors...They aren't worth it; just this friday we had some ADHD (no offense to anyone) Girl that obviously didn't take her medicine and was running after our group, harassing the guy who had dumped her. Well, she kept going on and on about how her parents knew cops and that she supposedly had a "Force" Of cops on her team. We finally reasoned with her, but not all of them are like that.

I'll say one piece of advice that I find both true, yet terribly terribly mistaken: "Love is a weakness, a curse, and a pestillence, you don't need love to continue going through life, all you need is--Strength, power, glory, and money."

I must say that Love can be a weakness at times (many times for me...) But it IS needed if you want to have a good life.

SS3...Take care of yourself, and I mean this, I don't want to see you end up like some trash on the side of the road, you're better than that man. Despite I haven't had the chance to get to know you, I can see right through you, and know what?--You're a good guy.

---Ruckus the Rogue

[ErusAngelus]

You need therapy dude...it does good...I got a therapist and psycologist now...going to new school....noone called me stalker cause I do have a gun and they dont know me....your life will get better like mine is slowly just hang in there get those 2 docs talk to them and tell them what you need they will help you greatly it will get some stress off you too though you might miss a few days of school...dont be depressed especially over Females....Gah evil....dont know if they human....Get better man and you shoulda kicked his *** a bit more...oh and went to the cops about that girl that went to the cops

[Killerconvic]

... ok lol i only try to anyoy people who are like you... arrogent and highstrung thats why i try to anyoy you

Arrogant, yes. High-strung, no. Not sure how you got that one Maybe you meant another word?

But anyway.. Don't bother including the fact that people like me led you to attempting suicide, since you tried to annoy people like me. If you annoy someone, what do you expect they'll do? Be nice?

[Ruckus Fox]

Um....Erus...please don't ever say that again....I despise Racism and Sexism e.x *twitch*

---Ruckus the Rogue

[ErusAngelus]

I didnt say anythign Sexist I know that from experience especially if your in 2 calsses of pure girls and your the only guy in there alot of things are heard and things you dont want to know at that...*shudders*

[SlainThrax-]

thanks everyone...

[Ruckus Fox]

dont be depressed especially over Females....Gah evil....dont know if they human.

Admit it...that sounded pretty sexist to me...Despite that they may talk differently, act differently, have different thoughts, ideals, pleasures, pains, everything...They ARE human...As far as my knowledge, everyone is human here.... (except me ^-^)

---Ruckus the Rogue


edit: And no problem SS3, I'm here for ya budday.

This post has been edited by Ruckus Fox: 18 October 2004 - 04:29 AM

[ErusAngelus]

Well its true have you sat there and seen how long they can talk its like a bubler of words....They can sit and talk about a ounce of perfume for like 5 hours its horrible....I should sit in one of their convos...but im scared it might turn towards rappers I dont need to see a naked rapper in my mind....*shudders*And ruckus To anyones knowledge here your arnt human no offence ment

[Jarik C-Bol]

Man. you have no idea how much i understand what you're talking about. (i'm not in the shareing mood, lets just say i've been through the same thing.) The best thing you can do is talk about it with people. friends, family, anyone you can trust. can help so many things. I know what its like to think about ending it. but no mater what, there's always a reason to go on. keep on man, it can always get better.

hem.

about that sexist thing.
anybody remember how you acted towards the oposite sex at a young age (8 - 13ish)? us guys were all "girls? eewwww" and vice-versa. rember, some of us here are still kids.

[Ferret Overlord]

dont be depressed especially over Females....Gah evil....dont know if they human.

Admit it...that sounded pretty sexist to me...Despite that they may talk differently, act differently, have different thoughts, ideals, pleasures, pains, everything...They ARE human...

I dunno... like his idea better

Most girls, as I have learned, are stuck up snobs from the age of 10 to 26. That's why I avoid every possible hint of feelings about a girl ('cept utter disgust).

Snobs... Stupid seventh graders.

SS you should see a counselor. And try and talk to the girl. Just remember, if she makes physical contact, she's in the wrong (She'll get suspended).
Or one day you could set fire to her house... but that's illegal...

Also, don't wear camo when someone's spreading rumors about you bringing in a gun. It's common sense man.

[©allum]

Uh oh, looks like I'm sexist! I really didn't know that something I was obviously meaning as a joke/not to be taken seriously was taken seriously by a "Rogue"/"Clan Pet".