So like, I totally figured out what was up with it.
Yeah. I know. It's bad. But an addiction is an addiction. And I just now recall what could be the culprit. Snowy, take heed.
Black Clove cigarettes. They do it. I guess it's an offset of the taste and flavor. It's something I grew quite fond of, but a coworker reminded me that use should stay minimal at best. There are chemicals in those things that make your lungs bleed on contact.
'Lo and behold, here I am. A handful of blood and a helluva mess to clean up. For real guys. I told myself I wasn't gonna get addicted. I did. I'm breaking it, but once you get on the stuff, it's really hard to get off. I can't really condemn anyone that does it, because it'd be hypocritical of me to say so. Best I can do is encourage whoever to not do it. 'Cause while it honestly does knock stress down a few stories, it's got some bad stuff that comes with it. I'm working on cutting out, but it's a lot harder than I thought it was gonna be.
Woooo. Bleach time.
Black Cloves? {expletive hax0rd by Cspace}. I used to smoke those...
Btw I'm glad this thread came around just as I was considering swapping my american spirits for kreteks.
So, you're not the only nicotine slave Mike.
Can't afford Spirits. And no, you're not the only nicotine slave. I tried switching to lights, but after awhile I just started tearing the filter without realizing it. I refuse to quit cold turkey, because I've seen so many people attempt it, not have the will power, and go back to it in full force and more.
With me, smoking is a love/hate kind of thing. I make a {expletive hax0rd by Cspace}load of money off them at school, and in the day I can't help but think "This isn't
that bad for me." Of course, when I say this, I do my best not to recall the mornings when I wake up with what feels like half my lungs in my mouth. Maybe I should just not be a cheap {expletive run over by Cspace} and go for the Spirits.