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My Capsules: A History. Mark IV.

#1 {lang:macro__useroffline}   Phieta {lang:icon}

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Posted 10 October 2009 - 08:48 AM

February/March 2005: My capsule was ~99% RuneScape and SeeD.

April/May 2006: My capsule was ~95% RuneScape and SeeD, with Guild Wars and the DoA added on after getting Prophecies for my birthday. Real Life was mentioned as an afterthought. Also, I clearly misunderstood the meaning of the term "gelcap." (My present self, who has done occasional work in a pharmacy since this spring, rolls his eyes.)

June 2007: My capsule consisted of a single sentence this year. A reminder. A permalink to a mental snapshot, if you will. I told myself to remember where my life was, and I doubt I'll ever be able to forget. I was in the process of slowly transitioning into an important chapter of my life. A chapter that taught me a lot about life, and about mine in particular.

April & May 2008: My capsule was never posted. I didn't even reply to the DoA capsule. You see... the thing is, I wasn't all that involved here anymore. Y'know that life chapter I mentioned? Well... the period before it was written, this place was essentially my Home, or one of the closer things I had to one. And now I had a new Home: one set firmly in Real Life, one shared with a good friend, and one that pointed towards a path into the future. Sadly... that path ended abruptly at the edge of the map.

So the new year began kicking my {expletive antidisestablishmentarianized by Cspace} after only a few days, and hasn't given up yet.

October 2009: If the usual expression refers to a person "facing a blank canvas," I am seated instead in front of a sheet of paper that has been sketched upon, crumpled up, thrown away, rescued from the trash, smoothed down, and hastily erased. Through a lengthy series of events... I find myself, to steal a phrase from one of my favorite songs, "a free man with no place free to go." My capsule this time around shall reflect on this.

The chapter I spent two years living came to a close, and the pages at the back of the book had been torn away... okay, at this point I'm just stretching the metaphor, so forget that. The point is that things have changed. If the last two years taught me mainly about myself, this year has taught me mainly about other people. Which in turn taught me more about myself, but still. Not the focus.

It's been a {expletive ninja'd by Cspace}ing interesting year, to say the least. One after another, I lost the various supports behind the life I'd led, including a friend I'll dearly miss and whom I wish I had known better. I crashed, and I burned. I ended up face-down in the dirt on the side of that path I'd been following, and shortly thereafter lost my reason for following it in the first place—not to mention my means. I pushed myself to my limits, desperately trying to keep together what I had left. I let myself get taken advantage of, repeatedly, thanks to my trust in a person who had worked to earn it. I met a new friend who kept me from going entirely mad. I flew 3,000 miles (give or take) to the other end of the country in search of everything and nothing, only to drive 3,000 miles (give or take again) back the other way to realize that the place I really belonged was here the whole time. The thing is, though... it's still not my Home. And that concerns me.

I guess the key difference now is that I'm finally doing things at my own direction, not that of others. I'm not used to that. And that's why I don't feel at Home: because I'm not there yet. And my Home is somewhere out there; it's just that I need to draw my own map to find it this time.

I've got a lot of work to do.

(I don't expect this post to make much sense to anyone besides my future self, if anyone at all. But thanks for reading all the same.)

Tale aside, here is where I stand presently. In the spirit of my past capsules, and as this is officially a gaming community, I will cover vidja games first.

RuneScape: No. Just no. Well, maybe. Not enough of a maybe to get me to pay for a few months of membership to unlock my member items and give them away so I have a usable bank so I can occasionally attend events hosted by the remaining SeeDs (both of them), but a maybe all the same.

Guild Wars: Still only have Prophecies; I've managed to reach level 18 (very close to 19!) and am hunting for guildies to play with. (Aurora Glade anyone? I want to do the bonuses too, and no running; I want to follow the whole story kthx.) Goal is to earn Protector of Tyria, then pick up Nightfall (probably the Trilogy package actually) and/or Eye of the North and work my way through before GW2 is released.

Real Life: I'm not sure what to mention here. It's... still interesting at this point. Besides working for the big red bullseye (Photo, Service Desk, and a bit of Pharmacy... for the most part) or sleeping, the vast majority of my time is divided between my parents and my girlfriend. Don't have much of a life apart from this, partially due to the little time that's left, partially due to necessity, and also partially because my friends are all away at school.

Still living in the same town as ever, spending nights at one apartment or another without ever really moving. Still listening to the same stuff I listened to a few years ago, but with lots more Matt Costa and Destroyer. Currently looking for a second job, working on paying debts (both financially and otherwise) and making improvements (ditto). Once I've made progress on that, my plan is to train as a pharmacy technician to work my way through "real" school, the details of which are still fuzzy. (I'd been set on veterinary medicine since my then-girlfriend made me realize that I'm freaking awesome and wouldn't just end up killing a bunch of animals. ;P But the thought of pharmacy had never even crossed my mind, and now that I've been working in one, my interest is piqued.)

See you in 2010.
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Posted 10 October 2009 - 04:34 PM

Let's just hope you sort everything out by 2010. biglaugh.gif
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Posted 18 October 2009 - 08:18 AM

{lang:macro__view_post}Xmadole, on 10 October 2009 - 09:34 AM, said:

Let's just hope you sort everything out by 2010. Posted Image


Am hoping so, thanks. :)
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Posted 18 November 2009 - 02:15 PM

(sorry for late post :P)

I'm sure everything will pick up for you, Phi :)

and pharmacy working is good right now..'tis a good choice :P
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Posted 18 November 2009 - 11:42 PM

Hee, thanks Star. :) And yes, it is a good choice! Same with everything medical/health-related, really. (And aren't you working to become a pharmacist yourself?) I've decided to follow through on becoming a pharmacy tech, using that as a stepping stone for wherever my future takes me. I'll be enrolling in a program that starts in March or April 2010 and runs for 27 weeks... so I've got til then to straighten everything else out. :yes:

Update on other things: Still going through the long process of organizing my life... organizing in my head, as well as in physical space. (Piles and piles of paperwork :P) Getting a roadmap made up to get myself out of debt and to be prepared for anything else that may come up in the future. My conservative estimate (based on quick-and-dirty math) shows me debt-free within five years at my current rate, if I stay disciplined, and I'll bet I can improve that figure.
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Posted 19 November 2009 - 08:30 AM

{lang:macro__view_post}Phieta, on 18 November 2009 - 03:42 PM, said:

Hee, thanks Star. :) And yes, it is a good choice! Same with everything medical/health-related, really.

Not plastic surgery. xD







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